Fallen leaves

hour of randomness. gosh. i'm bored

perak trip was great

I shall not go into great detail right now but overall, the trip was supersuper fun. Whitewater rafting was the best. Though nobody fell into the water. Except for the part when we were pushed in by the guide one by one. Sadly, we had to leave the place on the 3rd day. Jasmine and i were really sad. HAHAHA. Jasmine and her mr chue-look-alike guide. haha. and me and the blue shorts person. Hahaha it was really hilarious.

We spent the last night together. With faadhilah and jasmine crashing farah and my room. We planned not to sleep the whole night but ended up sleeping at abt 1. It was super funny. We laugh non stop the whole time. hahaha. I'm gonna miss everything bout perak. From farah's "My coffee" to faadhilah's  random statements and to our "kiddingonleyy" (inside joke).

i miss long hair. see  la, the hairdresser's fault. stupid

There's just some point of time when you just give up. Everything. All your hopes.

shit you

maybe it's my fault

i shouldn't have asked that quest

You didn't tell me.

How cld i have fallen for you??

To all those who have made my two years in Cedar a memorable one, I love you guys, a lot.

Without them, my life would have been meaningless here:

To this little girl up here. Izni, i love you a lot. All the tears and laughter we shared together, I'll remember them. You've made my life here a whole lot better. I'm gonna miss all the walks in between classes. To the toilet and all over school. Laughing about the stupidest things with you. Smsing you all the hw each day. Walking up to class with you each time after morning assembly. You're a great friend. Had i not met you here, i don't know how my life would have been. Stay strong okay<33

Not forgetting this person up here. You're the first person i got to know of in 1/2H. Thanks for enduring all my whinnings and complains. And ofc all my trips to the toilets and having wait for me tie back my hair each time. Haha i know it was damn annoying. And having you hold my things for me. And making you tie for me my shoelaces. Hahah i'm damn mean. Omg, i'm seriously gonna miss camwhoring with you. You've been a great friend and I love you too<3

Humaira. Ever since i met you here, you've seriously grown. You used to be shorter than me. Really, stop growing man. You've been a really great friend/platoonmate. I'm gonna miss seeing you during platoon recess. And everytime meeting you while walking to the toilet. I'm gonna miss your hugs. Most of all i'm gonna miss you<3

Raqibah. Thanks for being a great friend/platoonmate. I'm gonna miss your cute chipmunkish smile, and your whinnings everytime i annoy you. I'm gonna miss coming to sch early and help set up the flag with you. I'm gonna miss your annoying voice, everytime you sing. Especially the wrong lyrics. <3

To this girl up here. Look closer, she looks like a monyet right? Haha Aqilah, I'm gonna miss you yup, all though i still have to put up with you every friday during madrasah. I'm gonna miss smacking your butt. A lot. And seeing you camwhoring with my camera. And keeping you annoyed at having to wait for me to uplad all the pics on fb. haha really, not my fault ah! We shall go jalan rayer with the same ppl again next yr kay.<3

Hazirah, I'm gonna miss seeing you in school whenever i walk past your class. And disturbing you. Haha. You're a great friend. I'll still get to see you in Madrasah though. haha. And you better stop coming late ah nxt yr for madrasah.<3

Huda. Thanks for being there for me all the time. And comforting me. And motivating me all along. And helping me solve my problems. You're a really great friend/platoonmate and i love you a lot. <3

To this person up here. Athirah. Haha i'm gonna miss seeing you i school. And each time whenever walking past you pretending not to notice you. Haha not even once smiling at you. You're a really great friend and senior and i love you alot. All the best for your Os<3

Secondary 2H '09:

To the class monitress. Haha, thanks for putting up with all the nonscence of the class for the whole year. And thanks for being a great friend/platoonmate.

Eugenia. Table partner. I wish we had more time to get to know each other.

Huiying. ex-table partner.

Farhana. Haha. This smart woman will also be leaving cedar for VJ. She's damn smart i tell you.

Elmira and Atiqah. Haha the 2nd Atikah/qah in our class.

Haseena. This is the girl who keeps annoying me all the time. Haha, but she's damn nice and funny. You and your fluff ahh.

And not forgetting the whole of 2H. Not exactly the whole, but yeah.

To the 21 of you, whom i love: 

Right now, I don't have one whole complete photo of our platoon. I love each and everyone of you a lot. I'm sorry for leaving okay. I truly am. Work hard together as one. Do your best, cause I know all of you can do it.

Honestly, I feel that leaving Cedar wasn't the best choice i made. After meeting the Vp yesterday, i learnt to realise what Cedar actually meant to me. The truth was, i really loved the school and the people there. But I couldn't accept the fact, and forced myself to hate everthing and everyone there. In this school, there were many things that happened to me. At first, I thought by going for tj ip, and leaving cedar, it could give me a fresh start, to everything. I thought that perhaps, I could improve on many things. My studies, friends. But somehow, I was wrong. Cause I knew that no matter where I went nothing could change, unless i changed myself. There were quite a number of people here in Cedar I got close to and a strong bond started to grow between me and them. I was really looking forward to my last day in Cedar, but right now, I wish i didn't have to leave.

At least, now, I knew that once a cedarian, always a cedarian.

I'm counting down to the last day of school. I reallyreally can't wait. I can't wait for next year. I've got one whole list of things i plan to do now that exams are over. Very excited. I dont want to go to school this wednesday. Huh you'll know why. Tsk.

My sister's keeper. I watched it. And i was crying practically the whole time. Really, it's veryvery nice. In a sad way.

This past few days, i've been smsing hassena a lot. That women ah. She damn best ah she. Hilarious much. Want to rebel all the time. during exams, i had to sit beside her the whole time. Amazing how i could endure her craziness. HAHAH. kiddingla. But seriously, that girl ah, has been so crazily obsessed over fluff. You hear about it you can go crazy i tell you. But it's damn funny to disturb her about it. Always pretend to act innocent only. But she's a great friend. Yeah!

Raya this year was kindof boring. As in for me la. I wasn't in the mood. Maybe cause i was thinking too much bout tmr. OMG. flagraising I want to die sia. Mudah2han besok hujan ah. Oh wait, i forgot to wish you all a

SELAMAT HARI RAYA, MAAF ZAHIR BATIN

Pictures soon ah

LJ to that whatever shit place yesterday was such a freaking waste of time. It was in the hot sun pulak to. Want to die sia. Then we went window shopping around that area. It was damn fun looking at clothes with those kentalnak mampos people. Some shops ah, the smell, best ah. Stink ttm. Like I enter teros my nose pain. Then got another shop pulak, main lagu yang nk buat aku terberak. Serious man. Then I tercomplain to Aqilah and Fitt too loudly. Actually baik jugak kalau the shopkeeper terdengar also.

Kay waitwait, I reverse backward abit. On Mon, in the morning, I bumped into IZNII. Then she hug me, purposely man, want to make me stuck there, cause got some people* going up the stairs(get it? Tk get it tkpe). Then after school, went ML Hahah, before that. We go camwhore in front of 4^thlevel toilet. It was damn scary and sunyi ah. We were having fun taking pictures. Then the other four(Raq, Fit, Aqilah, Humaira) baik ah, gi masok the toilet above the teachers toilet one, that side. Cause actually bef they enter I heard something(tkyah nak elaborate kan lagi ah). Then they took pics inside there somemore. Crazy! Then got one timer pic we took, it was damn blur, but I swear, we stabilised the camera bef taking the pic. And I was like ‘maybe hantu block’. Immediately they all rushed out of the toilet mcm tk tau kene kejar ape. It was damn la actually, though.

Currently chionging on Lit. I'm SO NOT looking forward to school tomorrow.